unthinkable

***even though i wrote this note october 31, 2010, i dedicate this note to NICK WINTERS. He was a true warrior of the iron and a true brother. He gave me knowledge and thru his actions he showed me what it means to NEVER BE SATISFIED BY ANY MEANS! he best represents what doing the "unthinkable" is. he did it during his training and did to get stronger. He motivated me and fired me up to be stronger and be proud to be a monster. And for that i thank him and will miss him and the strength, knowledge, and motivation i carry with me that he gave birth do will never die. And for that, I will dedicate my lifting now to him...in doing so I WILL GO RAW FOR GOOD. REST IN PEACE BROTHER...until i see you again...KEEP THE BAR LOADED.***


its only fitting i write this on halloween...have a lot to say so this is goin to be rather long....bear with me...


what does doing the "unthinkable" mean? it means doin things no one saw comin. committing to an act in favor of a larger picture at the cost of something. but here's the thing...that "cost" was already paid. doin the unthinkable means doin something without hesitation that fuckin shocks everyone. like a freak that's been in the basement that comes out and fuckin does shit no one has seen shaking up that fuckin balance that people calling themselves "champions" do. that's the unthinkable. to mean doin the unthinkable is what happens when all you have left is PURE hunger and no other way but to charge thru and unleash hell. doin the unthinkable at times can be doin that extra 100lbs no one is willing to do but don't think you can do..it can be doin that one crazy HEAVY-ass set on squats with a weight you've never done before after having done a huge repout for 10 reps and your flat out tired...it can be breaking a 20 year old record no one thought you could do..it can be loading up the weight on the bar that you believe isn't fuckin human, no one has done, but you know it must be done..AND YOU DO IT EASY! it can be goin outside of what you know to acheive that goal...and doin it without hesitation...and no regrets. unthinkable is all in the mind goin foward...


He stood before him..arrogant and strong. He looks into his eyes and an overwhelming rush of fear came over him. He sweats. He questions himself as a man. His heart for battle is gone. Why? Because he saw the killer instinct & hunger of a warrior.


the thoughts of a man willing to do the unthinkable to achieve his goal is what made the other tremble and sweat. why? cause he wasn't willing to go that far for it. that's what called "limits". its human nature to acheive them. that's right, human nature. what separates us from the rest is what and how far we are willing to do and how far we are willing to go. what beasts are we willing to unleash? that is the question. how do you get that point? where you abandon the chains you've carried all your life...where you cut loose what you known to hold you back...its simple. when its taken from you. like a pacifier from a baby forced to deal with life without it. forced to adapt. what we pose as "unthinkable" in our minds aren't so much when rage and hunger is all that remains...


When you lose it all and your at rock bottom all you have left is that hunger..the hunger to be more than what you are and want it BAD.


that hunger will drive you to do what you think is unthinkable. some do it to survive in this world. others do it to acheive a goal bigger than themselves. when i walk around in daily life i look for this in people. thru their eyes is where i can see it. the fact when it comes down to it...they will do the unthinkable to acheive their desired result. does it reinforce that killer instinct i talk about? yes. go back to the the example i gave above. the man with full of arrogancy and strength believe he will win the battle and move onto the next. he believes that this man before him doesn't have what it takes to put "fear" into his heart. ok so why did that change when he approached him? nuthin says pure intimidation and nuthin gives the other man more of an overwhelming fear more than that killer instinct in their eyes. fuck words. they only cover what's truly underneath but like the icy chill of winter, a stare of a man who has been thru hell, who's hungry, and who has that killer instinct and is willing to do the unthinkable to win the WAR. that's right, i said WAR. his opponent is only thinking about winning this battle while this man is preparing the long haul. his resolve will only get stronger whether he wins or loses. he know this much, his opponent will lose much heart and blood if he wins...enough not to face him again....in the words of my big brother chad aichs..."you may beat me but you'll have to bleed first."


Strength to face your fear, Discipline to attack them, Determination to not let it stop you, the willingness to do the Unthinkable...and the Power to overcome them. Fear won't break Resolve.


But one must ask...to do the unthinkable, must we sacrifice something in turn? answer. it was already sacrifaced. why? because before the unthinkable occurs, there isn't any hesitation to do it. the chains have already been broken. that person already made that decision before it came to this. now its at a point where it MUST BE DONE for the hunger will burn more than ever one step closer to achieving that goal.



What evens the playing field with the bigger, stronger, and faster? Pure hunger and killer instinct! Remember that.


society likes humans to stay within their limits even when someone who hardly fuckin works and takes it the easy way and never appreciates the works. when those "champions" are sitting high and boast the claims of being bigger, stronger, and faster, they believe in their eyes its not necessary to evolve further...to challenge themselves. its partly their fault. the other is society placing them there and keeping them there by all the admiring and praising. society hopes they can guard their BALANCE AND that no one comes to upset it. the world is changing. no more is their balance safe. pure hunger and killer instinct can level the playing field and MOST times overcome that champion...why? the warrior mindset to do the unthinkable...to upset the balance...and change the fuckin game. everybody knows how the champion will gain victory and makes it his goal..everyone knows the warriors' goal but don't know how he will achieve it other than his actions and his resolve to do whatever it takes.


‎"When you hit the gym, you should be focused on the larger picture- hitting your goals, whatever they may be, and making everyone weep with fear when you stomp around the gym like a miniature Godzilla, not quibbling internally over nonsense that will have little to no bearing on achieving your goals."- jamie lewis


that quote hit home hard. it made me realize and focus on the LARGER PICTURE. doin the unthinkable means more than just doin shit in training that no one else will do or doin obsene numbers that normals can't even grasp. its about putting it out there...the platform...the cage...the arena...the stage...i know that now and i'm at a point now where doin the unthinkable is goin to happen. my hunger and my passion for the iron is too great and how i attack the iron with killer instinct will make be stronger regardless. yea, i have people who may think i'm a joke. i don't care. warriors learn to not let the words of little normal people affect them from the inevitable. best part about it is....they don't know what the inevitable is.


The strongest do whatever the hell they want to because they can."- greenie.


the strongest themselves upset the balance. goin to that place to do the unthinkable is what's necessary when all you have left if your hunger. everyday i strive to committ the unthinkable. just when people think i'm done, i go back for more. doin the unexpected. never settle for bein normal. you know now the playing field can be leveled. you know now that your resolve won't be broken. BUT you also know that your hunger grows stronger each day. I KNOW now what i'm left with...my passion for the iron and my hunger to be evolving into something bigger than myself. i know it will be a war. i already have scars and know more are coming. i know more pain and suffering are coming. i'm not just willing to face them...i'm going to charge foward like the fuckin juggerant i am...no warning whatsoever. so when someone decides to stare into my eyes, they will see hell. they will see the violent intentions i have as it will cause them to question why they are in front of me in the first place. they will know my killer instinct as it causes them to break into a fuckin sweat. they will know i'm liable to do the unthinkable and won't hesitate doin so...enough to take their heart for battle. will they fear me? maybe. i can't care if they fear me or not...what matters is they know i'm fuckin here and i'm after the LARGER PICTURE and they know for DAMN sure they are in for a fight --- win, lose or draw he will bleed and will lose heart. he won't return for a rematch if he isn't a warrior. warriors can only get stronger from the challenging of other warriors. anyone lesser than them won't survive the first encounter. i will close with this statement and the pic below which speaks UNTHINKABLE. with all that said..the question remains...when someone steps to you and they stare at you...what will they see...and..

are you willing to do the unthinkable?

TB

rule #2 of CHAOS 513....see the bigger picture

the bigger picture

a warrior always sees the bigger picture. he uses his sword to slash and destroy what's before him cause its always something obstructing his path...he never stops cause he's always looking at the bigger picture...so what a battle is lost...the war is never fuckin over..

i'm surrounded by weak fucks who are blinded only by what's in front of them. they don't see past it. they never will. when shit changes they are left directionless. no where to go. until something else is in their vision blinding them once more. it becomes foresight. its fuckin predictable and i see it everyday with every person....because of egos, greed, and insecurities they are blind to this predictable process.

i see it all the time. fuckers who weren't focused decide that they once to "get back in the gym" that they shouldn't of left. only to see them leave when the next thing obstructing their vision returns. i've seen it happen and don't waste my time on those who can't see the bigger picture. they want to quit. they want to make it easy. that makes them weak. i see that. they allow those chains to pile on one after another til they are chained by society. sad fucks.

i'm always motivated by those who finally see this and are able to create the bigger picture for themselves...object of their focus. to me there is nothing better. another warrior who has joined the army against the natural order...for its "comfortable" setting of society that allows "weak" motherfuckers to be blinded by only what's in front of them. they aren't willing to sacrifice what i have sacrificed for the bigger picture.

i realize the bigger picture for me. i'm a nobody. i'm tired of it. i'm being held back and caged...i'm pissed off. i want to be the strongest motherfucker. its all i think about. in order to do this i have to challenge myself. how? by facing the strongest. this means upsetting what people see as normal. the balance. my mere existence now upsets the balance of normal. fine. the bigger picture is this...to be the strongest motherfucker NO ONE SAW COMING!!

i'm done bein distracted by shit before me. i will do what i must to make that picture everyone's reality...cause i choose make it.

seize the bigger picture. don't be fuckin weak.
TB

heroes & villians

"I'm my own brand of motherfucker."- Jonathan Greenwood

we see them in just about every gym around the world...the one the douchebags like to talk about to use "legit" lifters.

heroes
they are usually the strongest guy at the gym who usually given that title because he's putting up 500 or so on the bench. he does a million chest movements. never does legs however. wants to get his swole on. he's what every guy in the gym wants to be and what every girl wants to be with. he's usually giving bad advice on how to get his bench up. all the douches love him though. the gym owner like'em because he brings people to the gym. problem is with the heroes is that they aren't legit. they are comfortable with showing off to the other gymrats on international chest day like he's a star so almost every session is a social time for them. and even worse...they are content and comfortable. they are usually there til someone stronger steps into place and then they fade away...good. they're good for a laugh too. they have no fuckin idea on what it takes or for that matter what the "bigger picture" is. people love these guys. why? cause people feel like he's "normal". they want to "act like" as supposed to "being like"...they have their friends do things like "holding the bar" or scream at them looking like idiots. they are truly afraid of testing themselves more imporantly they are afraid of failure. he halfasses pretty much all the time and probably trains 8 days a fuckin week. testing yourself doesn't always have to happen on the platform. just becoming stronger than last week is enough and these guys aren't willing to do it. heroes don't like to sweat and bleed...you ever notice that? they don't think its proper or that that they are pushing too hard. if they cry, they want sympathy. someone to tell them...that they are still "#1 in their eyes". usually pushing these guys hard will result in them no longer lifting or no longer lifting with you so they avoid you. they arent' willing to sacrifice shit for it either. they rather look swole for the club. pure and simple...they are a waste of space...and some of "today's" champions ARE this type unfortunately...

villians
these are my types of motherfuckers. these guys could care less about who's watchin him or let alone what he's doin. he comes in with a purpose of getting stronger and better than yesterday. he doesn't say shit to anyone. why? cause no one in his immediate area is worth a damn. they are all douchebags til proven wrong. you know the types. they are the ones who bring in the chalk that gym owners hate. they roar like overgrown animals in the gym scaring away the "little" people and don't give a fuck. they bend bars too. they bust ass 24/7. the heroes can't stand these guys cause they are stronger than them. a lot of these guys are competitors. so they have that killer instinct. they will do what they do to accomplish their goals. they are legit. but because of the pussy society we have today they want to see the heroes but not the villains cause the villians intimidate the normal people...i say onto them villians because they are hated and sneered at by normal people who don't understand them. they aren't afraid to train til they puke. heroes can't stand them because they do insane shit that they know they will NEVER do. the bleed, sweat, and bleed some more cause villians know that tears won't mean shit and don't want sympathy if they fail....they will just try harder. they are stubborn bastards the lot of them. refuse to quit...refuse to believe they are weak. they will make even what appears to be the heaviest weight on the bar to normals look easy. why? cause they want to. they are hungry as hell for more weight to be stronger cause they know what it takes and they will do whatever it takes to get there..if they fall, they will rise up again and again and again. they are hated because they don't do what the "norm" or "average is. they upset the balance everywhere they go because they aren't what people expect them do be. pain and suffering is a regular thing to them...to inflict on other or themselves...to be stronger. when its time to push themselves, you see who they "really" are. monster, freak, beast, or animal...either way they are what they are...villians...

i know that after about 12+ gyms i've been through i'm a villian. i can tell you that when the douches come up and ask the question.."how did you get so big?" or "what's the secret?" they don't like the answer..."..i just bust my ass." i'm not afraid of hardwork and sweat and blood if need be. i won't be reinventing what's already been done. why? cause being the strongest guy at the gym isn't enough for me...i want more....therefore i train hungry...never satisfied. question is...which one are you...

hero or villian?
TB

rule #1 of CHAOS 513....NEVER USE THE WORDS "GOOD LUCK"

rule #1 of the wolfpac- NEVER USE THE WORDS "GOOD LUCK". you don't use it in training so you damn sure don't need it come time to prove yourself whether it be on stage, platform, or arena or elsewhere. luck is for the weak. we are using sweat, blood, and more sweat to kickass and take names when the time comes. luck implies that you may or may not do well. man the fuck up. if you have that animalistic violent resolve...luck will only be reserved for your competition....for you will bring the fury of hell....again...rule #1- NEVER USE THE WORDS "GOOD LUCK".
TB