11th hour

killer instinct combined with violent intentions creates the unshakable resolve to be the strongest when being strong and hunger to be stronger is all you got left is what PRIMAL RESOLVE is..

the 11th hour...i've heard this phrase before at one of my jobs...it was when things wasn't goin too well and i needed to change something i was doin or be doomed to oblivion...well not in those words but that's what it meant in my head. well i did...now i face it again...and chose to fight. period. jay cutler was faced with this as well last year...he chose to fight. branch warren the same. he chose to fight. ed coan. same there. and the list goes on...what does the 11th hour do to a man?

the 11th hour forces u out of complaceny into action. your own status quo changes either for the better or the worst. u either fall or rise. everything u hold to dear is at stake at the highest bidder. you've seen it. imagine this. on a battlefield. one man stands alone..with his comrades all around him...either bleeding or dying...you are in no different condition. the war has been fierce and intense and its about to get worse...a hoard of your worst nightmares come to life approaches. some of your comrades retreat. for some reason...you don't. u stand your ground. but u realize that standing means your ready to die. your not ready to fuckin die. in a moment of rage and intensity..u charge to the enemy...u don't know if your charging alone but u charge foward...the hoard responds with a charge of their own...and come foward like a nightmarish shadow they cast apon the light....and then...fade to black. 

your askin yourself...what happened? did he live? did he die? no. those are the questions u need to ask...the real fuckin question is why did he charge? why did he decide to fight against hopeless odds?

a man reaches this 11th hour after enduring his own hell in shadows. a fall from grace if u will. he's a warrior who's beaten...but not yet broken. his fire is just about to burn out.  his enemies want to watch as he falls. but he's no longer waiting. he's fuckin reached his breaking point. he realizes that more of him is required. more than he's ever fuckin given. he has the odds stacked hopelessly against him...its when he cries NO MORE or wave the white flag in defeat. its when he's willing to endure more hell...returning to this abyss of madness to reignite that hunger and that fuckin fire to make his greatness a fuckin reality or die trying or stay within the shadows facing his own oblivion. this is where a man's resolve...intensity and passion either rise....or fall...if he's willing to wage war for greatness. at most times...a man comes to this 11th hour at his greatest defeat or fall to one's who's resolve is greater than his own. he either makes cry for war and become stronger or continue to fall defeated and broken. 

today's world is more full of people who have given up on their ideas of greatness in favor of complaceny and the "easy" life. they had their 11th hour and chose to retreat and live. were they fuckin cowards? no. their halfass resolve wasn't strong enough...THEY weren't strong enough to fight for what was already theirs. in that moment of desperation...they made a choice. they chose to retreat. not stand and fight. the words of the haters...doubters...posers...all got to them for one reason or another...failure became too great of a cost to suffer cause if they did...they would break to a million pieces like glass.

what about you? are u fuckin made of glass? fuck no. everytime u get to this point and u make a choice it either makes u weaker or stronger. period. its when you've lost alot..fallen into your own abyss of hell....where u have nuthin else other than your strength...and the hunger to be stronger that remains and u still want to bring hell and brutality just cause it pisses u off to be weak and pathetic...when u realize your both a machine and a beast...that's when u found your intensity and passion for something great...that fire...burning greater than ever unwilling to die out. your ready for fuckin war. your ready to wage hell upon any that dare stand in your path. you've made the choice to rise not fall. you've chose to embrace your inner freak.  u see no nightmare in front of you...cause u are one. 

‎" Next time I am onstage I am making sure the judges don't have a choice but to give me first place. I will stop at nothing until I am the last man standing!" - Gaetano Cisternino Jr

in that 11th hour...people learn who they really are. they know what time it is. there is no camera on them. there is no one watching them anymore. there is no more talk of them anymore no matter what they've done. they've been placed in the shadows. whether it be a great defeat or loss...they realize there is a level they must ascend to...if they don't..greatness eludes them. what they do now isn't enough. more is expected. they either fade away or rise from the shadows greater than they were before. its no longer a fuckin game at this point. sure u can collect all the trophies and records but all those in time will fade into dust. greatness is goin after the impossible...doin the impossible. what stop people from goin foward is fear of failure.

‎"leave ur ego at the door and train! That crap means nothing to me in the gym! I'm there to get a job done! Period" -- Guy Cisternino

what the fuck is there to be afraid of? u scared to lose that status? that title? that record? u want this shit don't you? u hunger for it day in and day out? are fear of words gonna take u away from what will make u great? you gonna have the balls to make the move most don't have it in them to do? this separates a champion from a warrior....a hero from a villian. heroes want the glory...villians want world domination. funny isn't it? but its true...world domination could last a long time and people are less likely to forget. the real fear should be what if you dont' do it? remember my previous note..."the walkin dead". that's exactly what u fuckin become. the walkin dead. the walkin dead are those without passion or intensity for living...they solely live to feed off others and whither away into a dark existence. is this how u fuckin want to live? 

in a man's 11th hour his mission..his passion...his intensity for greatness is at risk of destruction...forcing him to rise from his hell and become great or be granted permission to die. 

repeat that to yourself cuz its fuckin true. every word or it. your not granted a 2nd chance at this...this is your only chance.  the symbol of the phoenix is a great burning bright light of fire...rising from the ashes once more. this remains true to this day with everyone...just as everyone reaches that 11th hour where they must make a choice. one option is easier than the other while the other is wrought with more pain and suffering than ever but greatness comes at that cost. its a daily war with ourselves and our environment...but we don't fight to fuckin survive...but to FIGHT! no becoming what people want us to be but to become what WE want to be. following no man's path but our own as greatness is never the same from person to person. forging our own freak. 

“To anyone that ever tells you that you can’t do something – tell them to go f*ck themselves.” – Guy Cisternino 

like time itself...the 11th hour comes more than once forcing us to change our status quo...to harden the fuck up and fight on...to be more intense and passionate as ever...almost to the point where ur fuckin psycho about the shit....to strengthen your resolve for greatness cause the only person who can truly break your resolve...is YOU! no one else. no man is fuckin strong enough to break your own resolve. the one who breaks it is you by fuckin giving in. know that nuthin BUT greatness will satisfy your hunger...no fuckin title...no fuckin status...no fuckin record..if gettin it makes u hunger for more then its not the greatness u seek. no one should ever fuckin tell you u can't do and be something great...ONLY YOU HAVE THAT POWER! this is why haters...doubters...posers have no script in the horror movie your about to write...where the body count only rises. 

"you either have the fire and passion burning inside of you or you don't"- branch warren

if you fuckin have the fire in you...you motherfucker...aren't done. when that fuckin 11th hour comes...be armed with your fuckin brutality at hand ready to go to war. let your intensity and passion sharpen and harden your resolve to do some fuckin damage. its a fuckin body count u must commit to making greater than yesterday. its fuckin time to get your hands bloody and play fuckin dirty. no more mr. nice guy...they get killed first. let it make u into an untamed beast. you've endured hell and your fuckin ready for more. beat back that motherfuckin grim reaper back into the bowels of hell...with your fuckin bare hands if need be. no more holding back. time to fckin bring it and bring hell with you. show that your a juggeranut that's incapable of bein stopped cause his hunger for greatness is more. show who the fuck u are and what your willin to become. when someone fuckin tells u to show them greatness....your only response should be to tell them to fuckin watch! your here to do a job. time to fuckin do work. this is where a man sheds who he was to become greater than he was to reach greatness...at any costs. 

"let them hear your presence to greatness or let them fear the nightmare u will become...dying isn't a fuckin option.."

this is it....this will make u or break ur ass. will u be a gutless coward and hide in the shadows hoping that nightmare of yours passes or will be the fuckin nightmare who's fire just got hotter and brighter than ever. at the 11th hour...be that last motherfucker standing with his sword and thousands around him dead by his hand having brough hell and brutality... or be the fuckin first to fall...your choice. the clock is tickin...

fuckin rise or fall.

TB