the one or the other

ONE OR THE OTHER...CHOOSE?

....there was a comic done on this about 2 years ago. spiderman was bein hunted down by a vampire that was stronger and ruthless than him. he had help last time facin this guy but this time around he was solo. this guy smelled his fear of him and toyed with him until the time came to kill spiderman and when the time came, boy did spidey get his ass handed to him and then some. but something happened, he released his totemic powers of the spider and was able to overcome his foe but at the cost of his life. he was reborn only after embracing "the other" as apart of him now. prior to this, to be reborn, the hunted ate his prey to evolve to become a man...but was it one or the other...spidey chose to embrace who he really was...who he was becoming...




last year, that comic was an inspiration for me. to me the iron does just that to you. you get to a point where you have to make a choice like spidey did..."one or the other". everyone has potential but how far are they willing to take it? and are they willing to see it thru? are they willing to take on the burden, the pain, the frustration of becoming the other? i made this choice last year without a question in my mind or heart. i didn't want anyone else around me that hadn't done the same otherwise they might as well be human cause what we do ISN'T human! we've embrace THE ANIMAL within...whatever we see ourselves as cause we are never satisfied.

the iron remakes you...recreates you into something...physically. that's the part everyone in the world doesn't mind having. to take it to the next level, you have to evolve mentally. take on the burdens that most people would run from. the challenges that make you stronger than yesterday. when i walk thru a gym, i see those who rather remain normal and be "posers". but every now and again, i see that one person who has become the other..they stick out to me without a doubt.

whats happened to me now is that i get hungrier than the day before. there is always an appetite for bein stronger and becomin a monster...its my motivation. everything else in my life is for that primary goal. its focus. that's what happens when your faced with the choice of becoming one or the other. i chose the other...bein normal to me isn't enough. gauging my standards according to those normal standards sucks ass...i want to surpass them. when i train, i sweat and sometimes damn near come close to puking. my body becomes numb at times and i fuckin love it!! i blackout and then laugh about it because i've become partly sadistic. i've blown blood vessels in my eyes, caused nose bleeds, etc...just one more drop of blood my opponents on the platform won't see. its like what my brother, chad aichs told me..."you have to bleed first before you can beat me!".

John Defendis was giving that same choice..and he made it and became mr. america.

what can you take from this? don't be a puss! look into the mirror...are you becoming something? heroes are remembered but monsters are never forgotten. he accepted "the other"...

again..look into the mirror...and ask yourself what do you see? do you see normal? or do you see a future manifestation of yourself? you will have to make the same choice if you plan on playing this game. when you get under the bar and take a weight most fear to take on or when your under the weather and its training day, or when your at a meet and your head to head with a monster, or your out of the game and all you think about is rage and iron. what will you do? you have to choose...for me...when i get under some weight i've never gotten under before, i'm either scared or excited. and i'm always excited. how bad to do you want it? what are you willing to sacriface in the mission to DOMINATE and become that freak, beast, animal or monster you see? these are questions you have to ask yourself and questions i have to ask myself from time to time. so ask yourself...

one or the other?
TB